"Christ is the visible image of the invisible God. He existed before anything was created and is supreme over all creation, for through him God created everything in the heavenly realms and on earth. He made the things we can see and the things we can’t see— such as thrones, kingdoms, rulers, and authorities in the unseen world. Everything was created through him and for him." - Colossians 1:15-16
A cry from the depths…
Jesus, what is it that You want from me? What kind of attitude do You want out of me? I need to know!!! I am so conflicted inside from so many directions. I don’t understand most things that has happened in my life, or what is happening right now. I’m okay with that. You are sovereign and Lord. I trust you. I just want wisdom and accountability. I need your wisdom and accountability. I need You!
How do I be Your girl fully and wholly, yet be a wife and a mom and a friend? I don’t understand how to juggle all of that. I am an all or nothing one. You made me that way. You know better than I, who I am. So how do I love and follow you with everything heartbeat yet love and serve my husband and family? What does that look like? I know the “do everything unto the Lord” routine, but how can I do it fully? How do I bring my heart in line with it all? I am continually reminded as I write this of Thomas A Kempis. Holy Spirit, please teach me these things. I want to be joyful in my prayer closet. I need to find joy, deep unwavering joy in spending time with You and taking our family before you! May that be my joy! May You be my joy!